Bored?
Last night I paid a few bills updated our financial software, brainstormed how to save money (my sister suggested selling our books - I almost had a heart attack), and sat to stare at the walls. I realized something - I am bored. Bored. I can tell you the exact date of the last time I was Bored.
July 1st, 2006, the day before I realize I was pregnant with Sophia.
Bored.
It was 8pm. Sophia was asleep and had been for an hour. Her new daycare schedule has shifted her schedule dramatically. She is a puddle of goo by 6:30pm and it is all we can do to get her to bed by 7 without a melt down.
The dishes and laundry are somewhat caught up. Not perfect. But I broke-up with perfection long ago. Come to think of it, around July 1st, 2006.
The bills were paid.
I am a bit read out - I finished 4 novels in the past week. My reading brain needs a break.
I am pissed at my current knitting work in progress - Sophia spilled milk on it and the skein of yarn is crunchy. Ever knit with cruncy yarn? Not fun.
No yard work could be done - it was pouring rain.
No TV - we got rid of cable and haven’t gotten around to finding an antenae.
This boredom is brought to me by Sophia’s new schedule and Rob’s unemployment. Both of which are really not great things in our world right now. I miss Sophia - I hardly get to see her during the week now and she is a grumbly mess by the time I do. The kids wear her out. After a three week adjustment period I can say that she loves her days - and for that I am thankful. Rob’s unemployment - well, I think the angst associated with this needs no explanation.
This boredom also means that our summer of guests in the house is almost over. We have one more group coming through this weekend and then we’re done. Sad.
What a strange world to be in again. Bored.
I suppose I should have cleaned the house huh?
You know what that means? Time for a Spinning Wheel!!!
Either that or another child, but I’d vote for the wheel right now.
06 Aug 2008 at 12:26 pm
I really know that feeling, although I usually say that I am “feeling at loose ends”. Not really feeling like starting something new, feeling unable to start things I might enjoy doing. For me, it usually means there’s something I need to figure out, work through, whatever, and I just have to ride it out until whatever’s wrong (for lack of a better word) works itself out.
It’s a sucky feeling, though.
Sending you a big ol’ hug from the hot ass Central Valley.
06 Aug 2008 at 12:48 pm
Angst from unemployment is filling up our home, too. We’re doing are best to keep it together. I do know very well how you’re feeling, but have no answers. A spinning wheel isn’t a bad thought, however.
06 Aug 2008 at 12:55 pm
well there’s the spinning wheel.
you could learn how to crochet
anyway, i’m sorry that you’re bored. and i’m sorry about the angst. that’s not good.
i understand the boredom though.
06 Aug 2008 at 1:33 pm
Been there. Done stupid things because of it - but, done some really cool things because of it too. Hope you do the latter.
06 Aug 2008 at 2:37 pm
I know the feeling - it makes me anxious, spinning my wheels (ha ha!) but not accomplishing anything. I keep waiting for the next thing…blehh. Sorry your feeling bored, and I hope it gets better soon (although I have no suggestions).
Oh, and daycare will do that to a toddler. Bedtime is around 7 in our house, too. Missing time with them is hard.
06 Aug 2008 at 2:42 pm
Oh, I know how you feel. And it sucks. I hope it passes soon.
06 Aug 2008 at 2:59 pm
I usually define those feelings as ‘restless’ but I totally understand what you are going through!
If you haven’t already checked out your local library - do so! So great for anyone watching their $$ or lack of - movies, documentaries, music, AND books. And maybe you will find something to pick you up a bit!
06 Aug 2008 at 4:32 pm
I’m not quite to the bored stage, yet, but we are fighting the same battle with keeping the kid up at night! When he was in the baby class, he would stay up until at least 8 p.m. Now that he’s moved up a class, we’re heading for bath time by 7 p.m. So, I completely relate to missing the kiddo!
06 Aug 2008 at 10:11 pm
I’ve been in the dumps for most of the year. Not exactly bored, but perfectly happy to peruse blogs for hours on end, read, nap, play FreeCell. Not.get.anything.done. I’ve set some goals, renewed my antidepressants and am hoping that when the heat settles down a bit, I’ll be revived. There is lots to worry about. I’m trying to follow my advice and QUIT worrying when I’ve done whatever I actually CAN do to help the situation I’m worrying about. Worrying (or angst) is not inherently helpful. Do or don’t do, like Yoda said, right?!! Love to you and your beautiful family.
07 Aug 2008 at 4:16 am
When we were unemployed, I researched everything I could about a frugal lifestyle, and I became addicted to it. I certainly wasn’t bored! I looked for ways to cut costs in food, clothing, entertainment, etc. It really kept me excited!
07 Aug 2008 at 9:01 am
We’ve all been there. I usually pick up a new hobby/interest when these moods strike me.
07 Aug 2008 at 10:38 am
SELL YOUR BOOKS? (Is she on crack?) I would have stroked out on the spot :0
I feel you about unemployment…I notice that I am beginning to annoy my mate with the constant “being-home-ness” has reduced me to. (Only the dogs seem happy about it
08 Aug 2008 at 12:02 am
Oh man, I know that angst feeling. Chris was unemployed for 3 years at one point and I can honestly say it was one of the worst periods in my life. And we didn’t even have any offspring in the mix. I can only imagine.
On another note, I ditched cable TV a few years ago, but it turns out all the major networks stream their shows online at their websites now, no antenna needed! And no commercials. Yay!
08 Aug 2008 at 7:56 am
Sounds like you have a lot on your plate right now. it will all settle down and get sorted. It sounds like your overwhelmed and so the brain is saying let’s do nothing. Clean the house, what a waste that would ahve been. it would only get dirty again hehe.
10 Aug 2008 at 12:39 am
Unemployment angst is no fun. At least you have the two of you to support each other until it’s over.
15 Aug 2008 at 5:12 pm